Adjustment, Classwork, and Managing My Time
"Opportunity is missed by most people because it is dressed in overalls and looks like work."
For me, the problem with opportunity has never been work. I work hard all the time. For me, the problem with opportunity is sacrifice.
For me, that is the real question! I want to get a "higher" education...I want a business degree that will make me a more marketable employee and prepare me for starting my own home-based business. I want this because I am tired of living day to day, pay check to pay check, credit card bill to credit card bill. I want this because I want my family to have financial security. I want this because I want a financial future that includes some sort of savings plan to provide for my children when and if they need it, whether my husband and/or I am around to dole it out or not. I want this because I hate having to look in the cupboard and decide whether or not I can afford to buy the kind of food my children eat--which tends to be a bit more expensive than macaroni and cheese due to their special dietary situations.
I want opportunity. I'm willing to work for the opportunity I know this degree will provide my family and myself with more opportunities than we have now. However, the question still remains...
See, that's the part that gets me. I never intended to give up blogging. I never intended to give up my role in VOID. I never intended to give up my leisure reading, or watching movies, or going on dates with my husband. I never intended to give up my time with my family, or my time with my friends. I never intended to give up my fiction writing, or my non-fiction writing, or spiritual exploration. I knew I would have to reduce these activities. That I was prepared for... But now... I'm hoping this is just an adjustment period. I hoping I will get the hang of this soon...and then I'll be able to make time for all I want to do.
Because, when it comes right down to it:
The answer is this: I'm willing to give up as much as I need to in order to give my family the future I want for them...except for my family themselves.